i passed

i passed my driving test......at one point i really thought i'd failed when i rolled back slightly on a hill start. I relaxed after that, i suppose thinking i'd failed took the pressure off me......and for the first time in my life i was glad about tourist traffic as i spent 10 minutes in stationary traffic!

aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhh

9.27 am..........think of me! i will be starting my driving test........

big day tomorrow

so.....tomorrow is the big day.....i take my driving test!! i'm quietly confident, but not too much so. my attitude is, i drive to the best of my ability and if it is good enough i pass and if it isn't then i fail.
Bam is teething and Andy and i are like zombies.....i'm putting so much of my energy into my driving that i barely have any left for anything else. we're both grumpy and snappy, Bam is getting us up several times a night and then up and full of beans at between 5.30 and 6.30 most mornings. I can handle early arisings, but not when i've had a rubbish night's sleep.
We've decided that we're not happy here anymore....when we bought this house it was our dream, but important things have changed in the few years since we've been here. Some changes have been prompted by parenthood (i knew it would change me, but not how much) but not all, and even though we've decided, it's still hard to know what to do next. Job 1 is to get the house finished and valued....so we know where we stand money wise. Then we have to see where go from there....lots of ideas at the moment, but one thing we have decided is no rushing. I want our next house to be just right. We have lots of requirements......and in an ideal world, we'd have them all. But unless i win the lottery this week, it's not realisitic to expect to have them all.
My mum has Bam today....only the second day i have been away from him in nearly two years. She had him on Monday and they had a blast.....it's quite nice for other people to see the quirky and cheeky nature he has. And also to see why i'm so tired. YES he really is on the go ALL DAY! i can manage to calm him enough for a nap but when he's with other people he's too excited to sleep.....
well i should get ready for work........

eventually

we'll see how much i get written......i'm still not finding it easy to concentrate! Glastonbury...........was muddy, and a disappointment really. It cost a lot of money, and the weather meant it wasn't as enjoyable as it could have been. It was so hard to get the pushchair around site, especially when it got muddier and everyone was walking on the paths to avoid the welly sucking consistency...and eventually it got so deep in most places that we couldn't let Bam out of the pushchair to run around. The people don't seem as friendly either, on the Sunday i took Bam for a walk round while Andy took our stuff to the car (we packed up and headed home on the Sunday) and on a few occasions i ground to a halt in the mud......and only once did anyone come to help, the other times people just looked on as i struggled. I don't think we'll go again, especially while Bam is so small.....maybe in future years when he's about 10. We're going to try some smaller and less commercial festivals next year.....quite frankly the BBC have completely ruined Glastonbury with the over zealous plugging of it, and they concentrate on all the commercial Radio one shite when it is about so much more. Well it used to be, i think they are slowly squeezing the individual style out of it.Actually i'm not convinced i'll ever return...so much i love about it has changed.
Neighbour..............the neighbour owns, but doesn't live in, the terrace which shares a boundary wall with our house. He's always been a niggly old sod, but for the most part we've always got on. Recently we built a raised bed on our garden (which is the size of a postage stamp) and we made sure it was not touching his wall, so as not to cause damp but he moaned about it, so we took it out. I lost all my carrots, lettuce, spinach, and spring onions :( .He also has a gate in the wall, which means he has to come across our garden to use it. He doesn't need it for access as he can get round the back of the terrace, but obviously it's a shorter route. Anyway he NEVER knocks on the door to tell me (ask me for that matter) that he's dragging ladders/christmas trees etc across my garden and through the gate......and now i have a small child i don't really want neighbour coming and going as he pleases. When he started moaning about the raised bed we asked him about the gate and he swears he has legal papers saying he has a right of access, but as yet (some two weeks later) he hasn't produced them. We now have to get solicitors involved as we need to put a front wall up (to make it safe for Bam, and also to fulfill a condition of planning) and we also want to block this gate off.....and i want to make sure it's above board.We can't afford to do it all then take it down because he produces papers giving him access.

every time i try to sit and write a new entry........i can't. i have so much going on in my head at the moment, i don't know how to get it down in words.

so notes for future blogs.........Glastonbury.......house......changes.....neighbour......

will try and get my thoughts on the above down at some point.

holiday!!

so we head off to Glastonbury on Tuesday evening, and while we'd normally spend the day leisurely packing the car (or van as in most previous years) this year we have a funeral to attend at 3pm, then the 'party' after and then back home to get changed and sort Bambam out for the journey. It's the first time we've done such a long trip with him, so we're doing it overnight on the way there and he'll just sleep through but on the way back it'll be a daytime jaunt so the week after we get back will probably be hell until we get him back into his routine.

i think we have everything organised and just have to remember our mantra of 'tickets to get in, money to buy anything we forget'.......if i can convince my brain of this i'll be less stressed out! i think i'm nervous because of being so far away from home with a little one in tow.......and as usual he will be fine and breeze through the weekend and i will comeback needing a holiday to recover from my holiday.

The raised bed we built will have to come down because the neighbour is being awkward........but i don't have the time or energy to go into that now.

right......Bambamis having a nap so i'm off to re-check the pile of stuff to go into the car while drinking a much needed cup of tea!

sad days

my nan passed away on Saturday night............

such sad days we are having at the moment. Another old drinking buddy has gone to join Daz at the great gig in the sky........and a mother and her young son were killed in a crash on the main road outside the town. This upset me, but even more so when i found out it was the lady who used to live in the flat underneath my sister. She used to wave as we walked past her kitchen window when visiting and really smile when Bambam waved back. I've always been emotional about this kind of thing, but since becoming a mother i'm much more sensitive to it all.
I really am ready for Glastonbury, need to feel the energy of the earth there and get my spiritual batteries recharged......